I haven't written for a good two weeks. Naughty me. However, this pause is justified - I've been super busy and working super hard. This hasn't been academic work but extracurricular work. Its taken up most my evenings - in fact may days I would return home just before midnight without having done a jot of medicine all day.

Anyway, all this work was in preparation for a big day. Weeks of blood, sweat and tears (Ed: definitely a lot of sweat - no not from gym either) all hinging upon a few hours. Sounds much like an exam - but it not. The rewards if your hard work pays off is the best feeling in the world; but if it doesn't work out - you can feel like a complete failure. Unfortunately this time, my hard work didnt pay off as well as I expected.

Afterwards, I felt frustrated, angry and disappointed. This might be understandable, but I think with reflection a bit of patience may have not gone amiss - a strong man is not he who can lift heavy objects but one who can control his anger. How can one feel frustrated, with the knowledge that Allah will give copious reward in return for efforts to please Him? I think is a indicator that I'm very much orientated towards worldly results and still view them instinctively as what matters - as opposed to the Hereafter as what matters. I pray that Allah will keep the knowledge of the Hereafter consistently in mind when carrying out all actions and that he blesses us with more and more patience.